i've had the time of my life.

and i owe it all to you.

i've been quite uneasy. especially yesterday. its almost gone now. i finished eclipse , and i got the worst feeling. maybe dread, as the last book is next. BUT JESSICA IS MAKING ME WAIT. EVIL PERSON.

anyway. (:
i'm sleepy. and i have computer graphics to do.

i love you squeaky pickles.

sticks and stones and weed and bongs.

i'm not a pothead.
let me clear that up for you. i don't do that stuff, it's too stupid for me.

anyway.
i started twilight. it's fantabulous. :D
i drove again today. i need an iPod FM adapter for my car.
the radio absolutely SUCKS in the morning.
i almost fell asleep, bc the music sucked so badly.
thats not good, sleepy driving.

i fly like paper get high like planes.

i fly like paper, get high like planes.

"oh no you didn't."
"stop everything, start it all over. remember more than you'd like to forget."
im so tired.
i was up until one, including shower, doing homework.
i did homework until midnight.
and not because i procrastinated, oh no. i started at five. and worked seven effing hours.
and its all because of a certain whore, who ran her mouth to our teacher.
this whore instigated us and pushed us and just plain angered us until we said things we didn't mean. THEN, she left a note, spinning and twisting the story to make her sound good, and the rest of us sound like shit.
it pisses me off.
and now, our teacher, because her feelings are hurt, and i understand to a point, but she completely changed the curriculum between her first and fourth (mine) classes. our class is now incredibly more difficult, which isnt fair. not everyone said things, and those who did were pushed into it by trying to defend themselves.
first block had like an inch long study guide.
fourth block's study guide was five and half pages long.
100+ questions.
I DID SEVEN HOURS OF HOMEWORK, NON STOP.

that my dear friends, must be illegal.

something is not right with me.

have you ever just wanted to completely let go?
not hold anything back?

would you be happier in life, or in more trouble than before?
maybe, you can not hold anything back, but say it in a niceish way, instead of "wow, you look like shittt."
you might piss people off that way. (:

but maybe people need to get tougher; grow a thicker skin. parents today try to shield their kids from everything, and end up being plain ignorant.
"my kids cant read this book! there's sex and cursing and violence!"
dude, your kid is in college. im pretty sure theyve seen, experienced, or heard about sex by now. and im sure every one of them curses.
and people lobbying to get a book about gay penguins off elementary school shelves?
the penguins [this is a true story, btw.] happened to be a same sex couple who adopted a baby penguin its heterosexual parents abandoned.
and parents say this book should require parental approval before the kids check out the book.

and you know, whats with all the babying of kids? yes, theyre children. when theyre babies, baby them then. but when youre babying 13 and 14 year old kids, whats the point? you're only setting them up for a very rude awakening when one day, when a no bullshit college professor says get the fuck over it.

our parents and their parents lived in the age of getting thrown in lockers, and being told to get over it.
now i'm not supporting bullying, but i am saying kids today have too weak of skin. you get hurt, you get up and move on.

that's all i'm saying.

he's got her best friend on the phone.

fucker.

since when did food being made with real cheese become a bonus? is there that much fake cheese in the world?

i smell of grass, bug spray, and general outsideness.
i mowed today. and trimmed the bushes. then i got in the car, drove to clendenin, and did the exact same thing at my church.
i'm quite tired, i must admit.

i've been looking into buying a new pair of converse.
a red pair. :D
alas, i cannot decide between high and low tops.
i think i'm leaning toward high tops.

have you ever realized how many liars this world holds?
myself included.
and people lie over silly things; thing that wouldnt really matter if you told the truth. if you told the truth, the world would not turn upside down; the world would not end.

also, have you ever realized exactly how many people use, abuse, and just plain string people along?
i feel bad for the people just innocent enough to become victims.
they don't realize they're being taken advantage of. and they don't realize the abuser is sucking out their soul.
poor souls.

i need new socks.

what a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess i'm in.

i'm hungry.
i thought i would share that with you.
i'm supposed to be doing an assignment, but class is over here shortly and starting it now would be quite pointless, don't you agree?
so i'll blog.
i'll blog until that bell rings, symbolizing our freedom for the next thirty minutes.
oh, what a sweet thirty minutes.

today is camo day. meaning the hicks of hoover are in pure bliss.

doctors appointment today, i'll get my new contacts and glasses.
i'll be able to see again! :D
then im going ot get my costume for character day tomorrow.
then watching my nephews, and spending the night at my brothers. i'm excited. :D

off to lunch m'dears. don't be too impatient while i'm gone. (:

momma told me there'd be days like this, my momma said.

it's spirit week.
this means everyone dresses wacky, and in funny clothes.
the normal dress code need not apply.
its great. :D
and im taking pictures all week long for yearbook. fun, eh? (:

so i stayed after school until like 7:30 today painting a poster for the juniors; quite frankly, i do believe we're gonna kick the senior's ass. and we're gonna kick it hard.

"you and i are gonna live forever."

i'm so tired. i need to start trig. i will, shortly.



i love you.<3

"because that makes sense."

i'm in computer graphics again.
and guess what?
COURTNEYS HERE!!! :D

we're giggling. hehe.

i had a trig test. mr lyons said it looked like it smacked me in the face.
i agreed.

the boyfriend is still in there taking it. poor boy.
he gets so stressed. i hope he relaxes and does well.

I LOVE MY RING.
i forgot to tell you it was our one year, wednesday.
my ring is flipping awesome fosheezy.
i loveee it.
i showed my mommy. she says the boyfriend must really care about me. hehe.





we're off to see the wizard!

and i thought maybe i could be someone.

so i was adding some songs to my myspace profile playlist yesterday, and i decided to add fast car, by tracy chapman.
let me explain something:
i was under the impression tracy was a man.
he sounds like a man, looks like a man, so i assumed he was a man.

no.
tracy chapman is a woman.
she sounds like a man, for serious. but when i added her song to my playlist, i googled the album cover to make sure i was adding the right one. several pictures showed up, most of her looking like a man. however, there were a few pictures of someone more feminine looking. so i investigated.
TRACY CHAPMAN IS A WOMAN.
i was shocked.

but when i listen to her song this morning, she does sound womanish. a deep woman voice, but a woman voice nonetheless.




who knew?